Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Humility

Full Definition of Humility:  the quality or state of not thinking you are better than other people : the quality or state of being humble

Recently i had a chance to meet up with one of the workers. I was told that his work permit is being cancelled and have to depart Singapore. On the day of his departure, i met up with him and sent him to the airport. As we are on the way to Terminal 2, he was sharing with me and asked me in a humble way,'' why am i being sent back? What have i done?'' After his sharing, i was just thinking thru what he shared. 


To me, i was touched by his sharing and the way he shared. Sometimes, bad things do happened to good, hardworking, faithful in the little things people. Throughout the entire situation that he shared with me, he remain calm and continued working as scheduled. He couldn't be bothered or be emotionally attached to the happenings around him. He was focus on the work that was set before him. People always says that there are two sides to the story, well i believe  his side was the good side. Why? 1. When he was being attacked by his drunk colleague, he did not retaliate physically or verbally. 2. He reported the case to his superior, and have them handled the case rather than taking things into his hands. Even when he received the dismissal notice, he chose to ask why in a humble, lowly attitude in front of his superior. Even while he was sharing with me, he was calm and asked me to ask his superior humbly why was he dismissed.


Pride and dignity are important. But make no mistakes about it. Meekness is not weakness. Just because you have small fists and triceps, doesn't make you humble. Notice i mentioned, ''the quality or state of being humble'' Humility is in the mindset, the way we think and feel. And how is humility shown? It's by the words we speak, the way we carry ourselves, the way how we live our daily life. 


Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Why fight?

Two of my colleagues/workers fought on the Sunday evening, resulting in one of them hospitalized for two days and mc.  Two days later, my boss called me in to discuss regarding this matter. And after reading, hearing from different ones, i do have something to say.

The most important when someone goes through that, it's not about finding what or who is right, what is wrong. But most importantly, it's to accept. To show them that we accept them that them as they are right now. Give them the space, time to recover to do what is right.

People are bound to make mistakes, errors. Some are daily, some are weekly, but it doesn't matter how long. What matters is how are we going to make it good, or even better. Don't solve the problem, yet leaving the people outside. Things/circumstances/situations can only change only when humans, people are involved. If we choose to leave/stay out of the matter, surely it will grow/go bad. Eg: You leave an apple on the table without touching. Two hours later when you returned, the apple shows signs of decaying. When you return the next day, the apple is rotten. 

So what can we say? If you and I choose not to do anything, often the things will leave or grow bad. The things and the people around matters. Don't wait till it's too late. Remember: No point crying over spilled milk.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Harmony builds Relationship









Matt 6:26
26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?

Look at the pigeons. Everyday all of them need food, water, and shelter. It's part of their daily routine for survival. Without either one of them, they might perish or die. Likewise we humans. But can you see the difference between us and them? Unlike them, we need to make ends meet, put food on the table, have a roof over our head. 

But in the process of doing all these, often we pursue money more than the things that really matters. Yes, money is important for at least basic survival like food, shelter, transportation. While money is important, life is more than putting food on the table. While money can fulfill the needs of the physical realm, yet there are areas in life than money could not fulfill.

Ultimately, it is building a relationship that completes one's life. Why is that so? A rich man wouldn't donate a large amount to a unknown company unless he has a working relationship with the company. Likewise, we receive blessings from God, because we have a relationship with Him. The reason why we receive is not because we deserve it, but because He is good.

Today make it a point to forge relationship with the people around you. Not because you want to be known all around the world, but because  life would be so much better, easier to live as least with a friend whether guy or girl.




Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Every relationship is a two-way traffic

Previously i posted and written on, ''What are you going to do about it.'' I liken a relationship to be like two way traffic. When friends first met, usually there would be a intro, getting to know each other better. But as time goes by, surely conflicts, arguments might surface. But really, what is the rationale of all these arguments, conflicts? To me, it's about giving space and time to talk it out. Bad things won't just pack up and leave. For the good to take place, BOTH parties have to make the effort to recover from the broken relationship.

1. TIME
Take time to sit down, breath, and think about the whole thing without blaming or condemning yourself or others.

2. PLAN
''If you fail to plan, you plan to fail'' A famous quote. I know it's always easier said than done, but hey, you gotta at least think the next course of action. Think about what you can do to restore the broken relationship.

3. LET'S DO IT
Notice I said, ''LET'S DO IT.'' To clap, you need two hands. Likewise, to be the best of friends. Meet up, have coffee, catch the latest movie, have dinner, and take a stroll around the park. Often it is these little efforts or moments that makes the most. So be quick and eager to restore the broken relationship that once meant so much, and have standing in your life.

It's not going to be easy, but life would be so much better, easier to live as least with a friend whether guy or girl.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

What are we going to do about it?

Few months ago, i  was invited to a chat group. And since then, i made few new friends. Since that day i was in the chat group, we had various outings, dinners, drinking session together. All seems going very well. The friendship was building gradually. Just when everything is sailing smoothly, something was amiss. Somehow, the chat group turn cold. The conversations we talk about, the topics we often discuss, it just stopped there.
Few days ago, i had the opportunity to have dinner and spent some time talking, speaking to him.

Both of us, or perhaps everyone in the chat group, are aware and know that the chat group is turning cold and dull.  What are we going to do about it? Can i say that just by keeping quiet, it won't do anything to solve the problems. Let me give you an example: Lazarus was dead for four days, and Jesus came on the fourth day and resurrected him. Likewise, praying is good, but the friendship is not be back on track.

I know we all have our own share of problems, stress, be it at work, family, and perhaps between friends. Can i say if you are not gonna make it right, one day, the friendship might end. If you got a problem, talk it out. Talk to someone comfortable. We are invited to this chat group for a reason. Likewise, we all have our needs, wants, desires. But as we are in this chat group, can we leave ourselves to God, let Him give us.

Therefore it's not about ''me, myself or I'' anymore. In this friendship we have for each other, ask yourself want can you do to maintain this friendship. What are we doing to make this friendship the best?

Monday, October 28, 2013

Healing starts from nowhere but from within

Matthew 9:20-22 The Message (MSG)

20-22 Just then a woman who had hemorrhaged for twelve years slipped in from behind and lightly touched his robe. She was thinking to herself, “If I can just put a finger on his robe, I’ll get well.” Jesus turned—caught her at it. Then he reassured her: “Courage, daughter. You took a risk of faith, and now you’re well.” The woman was well from then on.

Today i am writing this post to all the sick be it physically or emotionally. Why would i say, ''Healing starts from nowhere but from within.'' Can i say that it's not just the medication/physiotherapy/chemotherapy that improves your sickness. I thank God for the advanced medical science, the doctors, and scientists who have been doing, consulting, prescribing the medicines to those who needs it. But there's one more factor that really causes one to recover. It's the faith in the heart while he/she is unwell.

Earlier this year i posted here that i was on MC for 5 days, due to a ankle sprained. Yes, i was injured, having much difficulties to walk. But all the problems i encountered was physically. I am well aware that if i miss another step, the fall would cause further pain and injury. And so i started walking slowly, carefully taking all the safest way to begin my recovery.

I know and am aware of friends who are unwell. Today let me encourage you that don't let anything on the outside, the physical to distance your process/journey to the best health you could ever have.

Please don't get me wrong. I am not asking to drink beer, take on drugs etc.
While you're on your way to recovery, please be kind to yourself and apply the right method that will draw you closer to being recovered.

Lastly ,i wish all who are unwell, to be recovered..

Friday, October 25, 2013

The Lost coin: Complete vs Full

Completehaving all parts or elements; lacking nothingwhole; entire; finished; ended; concluded:
having all the required or customary characteristics, skills, or the like; consummate; perfect in kin or quality; thorough; entire; total; undivided, uncompromised, or unmodified;  having all modifying or complementary elements included

Full
completely filled; containing all that can be held; filled to utmost capacity
2.
complete; entire; maximum
3.
of the maximum size, amount, extent, volume, etc.
4.
(of garments, drapery, etc.) wide, ample, or having ample folds.
5.
abundant; well-supplied: 


Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn't he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ 

Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Doesn't she light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’

In these two parables, we see the difference between Complete and Full.

Being full doesn't means you're complete. I am sure you know what i mean by this sentence, and likewise you also know you're full of events, meetings, so much that you don't even haven time for the things that matters. Example the man who loses the one sheep. He's having 99 sheeps already, and yet he left them to get the one back. Look at the woman who is already rich with 10 silver coins, and yet still go and search for the one.

Honestly ask yourself this: Am i doing all this for myself or for people? Examine this: After all is said and done, am i happy?

The truth is this: Happiness starts from within. Though happiness is not always physical, yet it's visible. So whatever you do, pursue happiness. 

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

It's time to move on

Two weeks ago, i posted here that my sis was hospitalized due to a minor infection. Well on the same week, she was discharged on Saturday. That's a good news as she continue to rest at home till this Friday, 25th Oct. Something i saw is this: It's not the medication/medical appointments that will heal you. It's you, unless you apply the medication, go for the medical appointments. And though she was bandaged from right knee cap downwards, she's still walking to buy lunch etc. Though she was supposed to be at home resting, yet she could step out to get the things she needs.

Since that day when the line was drawn, we hardly talk even in office. If someone were to ask me, what kind of friend is she, i would say she come only if she needs help badly or needs company badly to spent the night. If not i would say, she's pretty free and going on her own. I wanna say that i am not complaining about her or the line. But can we erase the line? Can we talk about anything and everything? I wonder where's all the topics that we used to talk about? Have they went on a one-way holiday? Now this is true: Without communication, relationship breaks down. Well, it's time to move on. I can still be your friend only if you can accept.

Monday, October 14, 2013

Which is more important, valuable? People or gifts?

Scenario: A sister of a brother was admitted to a hospital due to a minor leg infection. Family members came and visit her with tonics, fruits and delicious food. All came and go, but only one stayed a little later den the rest.

Here's the thing: Gifts don't always represent people. Does a bouquet of flowers says,'I'm sorry,'' to the girl when the boy miss the date? Does a resignation letter from a employee solves/fills the vacant seat after he/she leaves the company?  As we know, the answer is No. It's the people who makes the difference, fills in the gap. No amount of gifts can fill the gap that each of us the gap. Therefore can i say a few statements:
1. To the single: If you're looking for a partner, wait patiently for the man/woman. Ultimately, your character will draw and attracts attention. I know sometimes, the waiting is long and boring, and it doesn't seems to be coming, but just hang on.
2. To the eager, anxious, heavy-heart: Take time to calm down. Sit down, breathe and think. Not everyone can calm you down, but only you can calm yourself down and think about the next step.
3. Employees: who have been working in a company for years and doesn't seems to have the job promotion, the increment in salary: Remember why are you here working. Is it for fun? No. Go and find the very reason, the passion you once had. And work towards the goals, the vision which once you had. Giving up now will lengthen the distance to your very dreams, goals you have been working for. So, don't give up. Taking a rest, or a break doesn't mean you are giving up. It's means that you have been working hard and for you to continue once your ''battery'' is fully charged.

So, whether is it one person or people, both make a difference.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Too busy for people that matter

Continue from the previous post.

Thru this three days, i was busy, yet doing all by myself. I heard my heart cried out,'' where are my friends?'' I felt so helpless especially yesterday. I left office while it was still raining. While i was walking in the rain, i left so tired and i don't feel like doing anything. I just wanna go home and tug into my bed.

What are friends? Friends are just title whom we give.What's the difference between close friends and friend? Their presence. I am not saying you worship them, but should they not be with you physically, you know in your heart that they are still with you. Often we felt lonely, not because of the physical, but usually it's the emotional. Eg: Two person can be in walking along the busy streets of Orchard road. One was walking alone and the other was with another friend. After a while, the one who walking alone came and sit down and didn't continue. The other with one friend continue talking, walking.

A call from Helplessness

Two days ago, on Wednesday 09 October 2013. i received a call from my Mom saying that my sis was admitted to the hospital. And i was pretty shocked upon hearing that. I asked about what happened, and what was revealed to me was this. On the surface of the minor leg injury, doctor found a black thingy. The doctor couldn't determined what was it, hence a blood test and X-RAY was done on my sis, yesterday.

My mom and i was pretty disappointed with no one, except my dad. On the night where my sis was admitted, he go nowhere but stayed at home and read his horse book. My thought: Can reading the book on your hand gets your one and only daughter any better? We visited my sis yesterday evening. But this time, my dad came too. But where was he found? He was sitting at the lounge room there. I was told that he came into the ward and left with one look. No question was asked etc.. My thought: Though you're here, yet you're not with us. So where and what's the purpose of you coming?

I watched a movie with Canney, Kendrick, Julian and his girlfriend, Sheng De aka SD card and Austin. We had supper and except for me, they all drank beer. They drank quite a few bottles and the Canney was the one i worried for, after all, it's her first time drinking with us. And so, i woke up pretty early the nxt day to see Canney if she had hangover. When i reached her place, she was up and doing her make up. I was waiting for her outside her place, when she passed the office keys to Zi Ting, her room mate to me. I left, feeling that it was a wasted trip. I came, only to have breakfast with her, and yet she sent me away with a bunch of keys. My thought: Why should i bother about her, whether she got hangover or sober? Can you show a little respect to those who care for you? You don't just sent people away. But here's the thing: Where is the thank you? You should say thank you, not because i deserve it, but because you're well-mannered. Well, she didn't say it even after i spoke to her. And she seems to be fine about it. Well, it shows that she can't and won't be bothered by it. And it was since then, the distance and line was drawn. I woke up today and was told not to buy breakkie for her as Julian was buying for her. While i was otw to office, we were on the same bus. But we didn't say hi. I was pretty sure she saw me, yet she didn't came.

Monday, October 7, 2013

3 area you got to be ready for any relationship in life

Few weeks ago, i was invited and went to Shane and Avis's wedding. And one of my friends, Jefri was with us too. While we were still chatting with other friends, he came and ask me a question. 'What do you need to do to be ready for a relationship?' Instantly, i remembered what my close friend, Jiayong also known as Joseph. 3 area you got to be ready for any relationship in life:

1. BE FINANCIALLY STABLE.
I am not asking you to be a filthy rich, or to be as poor as a church mouse. Imagine, you're already going out and dating the girl you like for quite a while, don't you feel bad having her to pay the dinner, the movies etc? And let's say, you guys have been together for the past 2-3 years and are having plans to get married. Do you have the finances to buy a simple flat, to have your dream wedding, go to your sweetest honeymoon, buy the most beautiful ring? It takes two hands to clap, and that's the fact and truth.

2. BE EMOTIONALLY SOUND.
Know what and be aware of what you are doing. That includes the proposal, the asking of she to be your girlfriend. But what if she comes to you with issues, problems that she can't handle? Do you have what it takes to advice her, encourage her or even help her in times of need. Can you hear her out? If she's crying her heart out, can you be patient while she cry out?

3. BE PHYSICALLY FIT.
Like me, i am not asking you to be a super macho, strong build man. But there got to be a bare minimum. For me, i am not prone to sickness, i also mean minor illness like, flu, cough and fever. As a guy or man, we are to be much healthier and stronger than any woman or girl. And since girls are weak, as a man, it's your responsibility to take care and look after her. It's a sad thing that out of the 3 years relationship, either one of you are often down and sick. So both of you gotta be strong or at least healthy.

Monday, September 30, 2013

Yet another heart-throbbing song: Scandal Of Grace

Just posted a song, which saw me weeping. Even as i am blogging now, am so touched on Saturday, by this song. Pastor Kong announced, also that we will have another Arise and Build 2013/14. And here's my heart thought: I am giving my dream of getting a new guitar into the hands of God. In this Arise and Build, i am POURING OUT MY LIVES TO JESUS.

Today, it's also my colleague-cum-mentor, Lawrence last day here in JRP Manpower. I was told by him that his last day would be on the end of OCT, but he has decided to bring it forward. And i was pretty much affected though i am almost 70% done learning. But since he has decided to leave, i respect him and hereby wishes him the very best in the near future.I just wanna say thank you for teaching me, helping me thru this 2 weeks. I am at 70%, it's all your hard work and giving. Lawrence, Thank you..

Sunday, September 29, 2013

Scandal of Grace - Teo Poh Heng @ City Harvest Church



Grace, what have you done?
Murdered for me on that cross
Accused in absence of wrong
My sin washed away in your blood

Too much to make sense of it all
I know that your love breaks my fall
The scandal of grace, you died in my place
So my soul will live

Chorus:
Oh to be like you
Give all I have just to know you
Jesus, there's no one besides you
Forever the hope in my heart


Death, where is your sting?
Your power is as dead as my sin
The cross has taught me to live
In mercy, my heart now to sing

The day and it's trouble shall come
I know that your strength is enough
The scandal of grace, you died in my place
So my soul will live


And it's all because of you, Jesus
It's all because of you, Jesus
It's all because of your love
And my soul will live


Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Goodbye past, Hello future

After leaving Asia Mannequin, i found and gave myself a month's long of break. And if you ask me what i did on the month's long leave, it's practically nothing but my likes and really much discovery, studies. And because i have so much time on hand, i saw myself doing the things i have always wanted to do. Like waking up late, turning in late etc. And the feeling is just awesome. Thru that one month, i kind of found myself back. And while i was enjoying, work never came into my mind though my parents was kinda worried about my future plans. Life seems pretty smooth sailing till things happen.

1. My ex-boss dad passed on. Am sorry for his loss and i hope his family will be fine and stronger.
2. 2nd tranche of the trial. In this tranche, we saw many, but also seen how God was moving in the midst of the whole thing. And thru this, the church was strengthened in faith.

And while i was still enjoying life, till Peggy Ang came and intro this new job to me. I am now a Project Officer in JRP Manpower Consultancy Pte Ltd. Today is my 8th day here and am about 60% on my job scope. A pretty nice job environment with good colleagues and specific, yet straightforward bosses. Just these two weeks, i learnt pretty much things. Am pretty enjoying my time here, and looking forward to the near future.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Best long weekend cum mission trip ever..

Woke up at 5am on 9th Aug 2013,  preparing for the long awaited mission trip to Myanmar. And here comes the first joke: the airline was delayed till 1pm. I literally laughed, and i actually tried to sleep, but for the next two hours, saw me tossing on bed. Well you could well say im excited to fly the plane. I woke up ard 7 plus, still got the "it's still early" attitude. So i asked Agapera and Bennie for breakkie, but none replied. Probably still Zzz.. I went breakkie on my own, and packed the remaining stuff into luggage. I left home ard 1020am, with Bennie and Winnie(his wife). We reached Terminal 1 ard 11am. So funny, i didn't noticed that Agapera wasn't in the same cab with us cos i was in shades. Met up with the rest at Terminal 1, at Belt 7/17.

If you asked me how is the mission trip, i just wanna very good and fruitful. Why?
1.I brought along my guitar with me, and though i didn't play for the main service, but i wasn't sad or disappointed. Being able to play for the morning and night devotion is just as good.
2. Rickson, Cyra, Bennie and Xixi, shared their personal testimony. Am just so blessed and encouraged by their testimony. Through this, i am able to see them in a different perspective. Somehow, i like them.
3. There were just too many laughs and times where we talk about issues. Balance was there.

I'm so looking forward to meet them again, whether is it mission trip or not.

My verse for this mission trip: Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([b]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
And God’s peace [shall be yours, that [c]tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall [d]garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].
Practice what you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, and model your way of living on it, and the God of peace (of [e]untroubled, undisturbed well-being) will be with you.
10 I was made very happy in the Lord that now you have revived your interest in my welfare after so long a time; you were indeed thinking of me, but you had no opportunity to show it.
11 Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be [f] content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am.
12 I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want.
13 I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who [g]infuses inner strength into me; I am [h]self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].


Sunday, August 4, 2013

Lonely isn't alone

Alone is a physical state where you are with no one except urself. Like in a shopping mall. Lonely on the other hand is no longer physical,but also emotional. Right now, I'm at 记得吃, plaza sing outlet. I'm alone but not lonely because I'm meeting Daniel and Jeffery later for LAN game. My weekdays is really quiet and lonely, cos no one answered my question or reply on my posts.. I was lonely to the extend that I cried.. But thank God, that the weekend is good.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Home

When was the last time i sat down here?? Exactly 16 days ago.. It's just been so so busy with work, meeting friends, went to many many places.. I guess the best place on Earth, is home. Why? At home, i can play the guitar, sing the songs i like or to like to practice etc.. It is home, that the we felt the warmth, love of family members. No matter where you can be, home is always there waiting for you. I just watched the movie, Saving General Yang. The movie is good. All six sons was killed in the fierce battle against the Liao. Eventually, the sixth brought his father back home though he was dead. It is a good show.. Haha, my guitar 1st string just broke.. Guess it's time to restring all six of them.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Relationship is Accepting

In every relationship in this world, one have to learn how to accept just as one is. Acceptance is the first step to start any and every relationship in this planet, whether you like it anot. Example: A employer is looking for some workers to build a 4 room house. He went out and start to seek for the workers he need. At the end of the day, he had 5 workers and their contacts. The nxt day, he contacted the 5 workers for a interview. The 5 workers met up at the employer's house worksite and began the interview. At the end of the interview, all 5 workers are now employed as contractors to build the employer's 4 room house. The nxt day, the 5 arrived at the worksite and begin their work. Day 1 ended, seeing the walls are up and painted. At the end of Day 1, the employer came and see the progress. He was pleased that the walls are painted the colors as requested. Day 2 started, and the contractors came to continue on their work. Today they did the finishing works for the walls and started the works on the floor. They put on the tiles the employers requested and was done the nxt day. Day 2 ended with only 50% of the tiles being laid. The employer came and see the progress. Though it's only 50% of the tiles laid, the employer was pleased with their works. Day 3 started and the contractors came and continue their work. Today they finished laying the remaining 50% of the tiles and they began to install all the windows and doors. Day 3 ended seeing all the windows and doors up. The employer didn't come because he was ill. Day 4 started and the contractors came to continue their work. Today they had all the electrical appliances installed to their respective places. Day 4 ended and the employer came to see. He was pleased that though he didn't come yesterday, the contractors did as he requested. Day 5 started and the contractors came to continue their work. Today they had all the furniture placed in their respective places. As there are too many furniture, they couldn't bring in all. They went to tell the employer that they needed more time to finish. The employer accepted their request, and they went home  and was told to come back three days later. The contractors went home happy, having the sense of acceptance. Three days later, they came back and continue their work. Today is Day 8 and they managed to bring in the remaining furniture and placed them to their respective places. At the end of the day, the employer came and see, and he was pleased with the work done. Day 9 started and this time, the employer was already waiting for them at the doorstep. Today he gave them their pay, appreciate them for working for him.

In this story, we saw and heard the many obstacles both the contractors and the employer met along the way. But none gave up or walked away. One thing in common they had: Acceptance. They would have known the building will be difficult, and they chose to accept.

Before i end this post, i want you to do something: If you have difficulties accepting others, try accepting yourself first. Or the people you love like ur family members.

Friday, June 21, 2013

Hectic Week

It's been a hectic week.. First three days, found myself working till after 11 pm. Was totally worn out after three hard days of work. And that's not all.. A new wave of haze kicks in started on Monday. We all thought it will get better after the nxt few days, or even better after a big thunderstorm. But sadly, it didn't get any better. In fact, the weather was still as hot, humid. In this week, today was the worst hit of haze: 400 PSI.. How "clear" was it.. As of now, it's at 142. Please let it rain, let it rain.. We need not want the rain, the bigger the better. Longer the better, colder the better.. Wash us cool and clean.

Deborah asked me to help her with her work, but sadly i couldn't go.. So to make it up for her, i went to meet her yesterday night after work to her place. Had a little good dinner at Astons, to pamper myself after a week of hard work. Thinking that her place is rather near from Astons, i started walking to her place. Well it's not advisable to walk. It's pretty far, around 30 mins walk. And guess what, i just traveled 29km or more just to her place. Now that's far.. Upon reaching her place, she was all ready to leave for airport terminal 3 to mission trip at Jinan, China. Was a good ride on bus 48 to tanah merah mrt, den to train.. I wanted to have a quick nap in the train to Changi airport but sadly, not a chance.. We walked to terminal three to meet Leng Jing, Rapheal aka Momo and Jeronn.. I'm all excited to see them bringing God to china.

Look, they are leaving to a place where Christians were once killed for their faith in Jesus. And now they are there as i'm writing this. I am believing the best, praying for all of you..  After this week, this is what i wanna say: People do things, go somewhere for many good reasons. And one of them is because of someone. People are willing to go, to do something worthwhile perhaps not for the future but at least for today. I traveled down from Bukit Batok to Deborah's place just to carry her luggage to airport. It's not required of me, nor am i obligated to do it. It's all for her, and not for me or anything else.

Question: When was the last time you did something meaningful/worthwhile/simple for someone? 

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Surprising

Surprisingly i still awake after a early, long busy yet fruitful weekend.. This weekend we celebrate Fathers' day. I was given the privilege to play the suspend cymbal, serving together with the choir and Cityworship. Had only one rehearsal on Wednesday just before we go stage. Though only one rehearsal, i must say i played pretty not bad. Though there were two wind chimes part on the score, but i couldn't play lest i came in too early and spoil the music. And it turns out to be good. Today the church actually clapped twice for us, the feeling of appreciation was there in the atmosphere. Music never sounded so good. After the performance, we stayed at the staff room to have a quick nap. I was pretty stone and rather tired cos i woke up at 6am, man im good till now. Together with the rest of members from 5-6, CCH, we went to Baby Elvin's shower party.. Baby ELvin is so cute.!!! Totally knocked out on the way home in the bus..

 
And to all the Fathers here on earth, thank you for raising us up.. You're our hero..

Friday, June 14, 2013

Sleepless

I woke up pretty early on a Saturday.. Usually my call time it's ard 11 plus to recover from a very long Friday, but here am i awake.. This happen once in a while but this time it's different. When this happens, usually it's because of someone i've been thinking or some events etc.. Ultimately one gotta voice it out. If you're gonna bottle up, and keep all these within yourself, you will tend to be closed up on the inside. With that, how are you gonna make true friends and relationships? If you had something bothering you on the inside, find someone you can talk to. Communication is the key to life. I 'm not too sure for the rest, but for me, i like to talk to people. Getting to know more new friends but with the friends i already have, i like to know them more and better not just on the surface level.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

I've come back for more

It's been more than two years already. But folks, i am back. Past two years gone, things happened, people have come and go, there's just too much.. A quick update on me. I ORD two years ago, went on to SOT like almost immediately and graduated the same year too. What's happening now? I am currently working with my SOT friend, Daniel in Asia Mannequin. Been here since 1st April 2013, am getting used to this job. Remember Xiuhui? Well, she has gone with a very handsome, rich boy name Xianbi aka Joseph. Well it's almost two years, and i guess they are fine. Caiping aka Rachel? Well, she told me the bad news on the 25/1/13, if i didn't forget wrongly. Joshua the name was mentioned to us, and we guess she kinda have like him?? Well i wish you all the best.. As for me, well, i've been talking to Michelle for the past two months over whatsapp like practically almost everyday. If you ask me whether i have feelings for her, i would say yes. But this time i am different. Instead of me chasing her all the way, i like to take things slowly yet steady. I confessed i have feelings for her, but i wanna confirm my feelings first before going ahead. I shared my feelings for Michelle with a few SOT friends, and was well received by them. If you asked me what i wanna say, take this: It's never about me. I give you the choice to choose. Whether you like or not, the choice is yours. Just like Michelle, i am giving her the choice to whether if we can work something out, or just remain as we are. I am cool about this. But if given a choice, i would like to develop and go on further. That's for me. I am not too sure for her and i don't wanna push her for the answer. Though i am 24 this year and my deadline is coming, let God lead and guide me to the girl.