A call from Helplessness

Two days ago, on Wednesday 09 October 2013. i received a call from my Mom saying that my sis was admitted to the hospital. And i was pretty shocked upon hearing that. I asked about what happened, and what was revealed to me was this. On the surface of the minor leg injury, doctor found a black thingy. The doctor couldn't determined what was it, hence a blood test and X-RAY was done on my sis, yesterday.

My mom and i was pretty disappointed with no one, except my dad. On the night where my sis was admitted, he go nowhere but stayed at home and read his horse book. My thought: Can reading the book on your hand gets your one and only daughter any better? We visited my sis yesterday evening. But this time, my dad came too. But where was he found? He was sitting at the lounge room there. I was told that he came into the ward and left with one look. No question was asked etc.. My thought: Though you're here, yet you're not with us. So where and what's the purpose of you coming?

I watched a movie with Canney, Kendrick, Julian and his girlfriend, Sheng De aka SD card and Austin. We had supper and except for me, they all drank beer. They drank quite a few bottles and the Canney was the one i worried for, after all, it's her first time drinking with us. And so, i woke up pretty early the nxt day to see Canney if she had hangover. When i reached her place, she was up and doing her make up. I was waiting for her outside her place, when she passed the office keys to Zi Ting, her room mate to me. I left, feeling that it was a wasted trip. I came, only to have breakfast with her, and yet she sent me away with a bunch of keys. My thought: Why should i bother about her, whether she got hangover or sober? Can you show a little respect to those who care for you? You don't just sent people away. But here's the thing: Where is the thank you? You should say thank you, not because i deserve it, but because you're well-mannered. Well, she didn't say it even after i spoke to her. And she seems to be fine about it. Well, it shows that she can't and won't be bothered by it. And it was since then, the distance and line was drawn. I woke up today and was told not to buy breakkie for her as Julian was buying for her. While i was otw to office, we were on the same bus. But we didn't say hi. I was pretty sure she saw me, yet she didn't came.

3 area you got to be ready for any relationship in life

Few weeks ago, i was invited and went to Shane and Avis's wedding. And one of my friends, Jefri was with us too. While we were still chatting with other friends, he came and ask me a question. 'What do you need to do to be ready for a relationship?' Instantly, i remembered what my close friend, Jiayong also known as Joseph. 3 area you got to be ready for any relationship in life:

1. BE FINANCIALLY STABLE.
I am not asking you to be a filthy rich, or to be as poor as a church mouse. Imagine, you're already going out and dating the girl you like for quite a while, don't you feel bad having her to pay the dinner, the movies etc? And let's say, you guys have been together for the past 2-3 years and are having plans to get married. Do you have the finances to buy a simple flat, to have your dream wedding, go to your sweetest honeymoon, buy the most beautiful ring? It takes two hands to clap, and that's the fact and truth.

2. BE EMOTIONALLY SOUND.
Know what and be aware of what you are doing. That includes the proposal, the asking of she to be your girlfriend. But what if she comes to you with issues, problems that she can't handle? Do you have what it takes to advice her, encourage her or even help her in times of need. Can you hear her out? If she's crying her heart out, can you be patient while she cry out?

3. BE PHYSICALLY FIT.
Like me, i am not asking you to be a super macho, strong build man. But there got to be a bare minimum. For me, i am not prone to sickness, i also mean minor illness like, flu, cough and fever. As a guy or man, we are to be much healthier and stronger than any woman or girl. And since girls are weak, as a man, it's your responsibility to take care and look after her. It's a sad thing that out of the 3 years relationship, either one of you are often down and sick. So both of you gotta be strong or at least healthy.

Yet another heart-throbbing song: Scandal Of Grace

Just posted a song, which saw me weeping. Even as i am blogging now, am so touched on Saturday, by this song. Pastor Kong announced, also that we will have another Arise and Build 2013/14. And here's my heart thought: I am giving my dream of getting a new guitar into the hands of God. In this Arise and Build, i am POURING OUT MY LIVES TO JESUS.

Today, it's also my colleague-cum-mentor, Lawrence last day here in JRP Manpower. I was told by him that his last day would be on the end of OCT, but he has decided to bring it forward. And i was pretty much affected though i am almost 70% done learning. But since he has decided to leave, i respect him and hereby wishes him the very best in the near future.I just wanna say thank you for teaching me, helping me thru this 2 weeks. I am at 70%, it's all your hard work and giving. Lawrence, Thank you..

Scandal of Grace - Teo Poh Heng @ City Harvest Church

Grace, what have you done?
Murdered for me on that cross
Accused in absence of wrong
My sin washed away in your blood

Too much to make sense of it all
I know that your love breaks my fall
The scandal of grace, you died in my place
So my soul will live

Chorus:
Oh to be like you
Give all I have just to know you
Jesus, there's no one besides you
Forever the hope in my heart

Death, where is your sting?
Your power is as dead as my sin
The cross has taught me to live
In mercy, my heart now to sing

The day and it's trouble shall come
I know that your strength is enough
The scandal of grace, you died in my place
So my soul will live


And it's all because of you, Jesus
It's all because of you, Jesus
It's all because of your love
And my soul will live

Goodbye past, Hello future

After leaving Asia Mannequin, i found and gave myself a month's long of break. And if you ask me what i did on the month's long leave, it's practically nothing but my likes and really much discovery, studies. And because i have so much time on hand, i saw myself doing the things i have always wanted to do. Like waking up late, turning in late etc. And the feeling is just awesome. Thru that one month, i kind of found myself back. And while i was enjoying, work never came into my mind though my parents was kinda worried about my future plans. Life seems pretty smooth sailing till things happen.

1. My ex-boss dad passed on. Am sorry for his loss and i hope his family will be fine and stronger.
2. 2nd tranche of the trial. In this tranche, we saw many, but also seen how God was moving in the midst of the whole thing. And thru this, the church was strengthened in faith.

And while i was still enjoying life, till Peggy Ang came and intro this new job to me. I am now a Project Officer in JRP Manpower Consultancy Pte Ltd. Today is my 8th day here and am about 60% on my job scope. A pretty nice job environment with good colleagues and specific, yet straightforward bosses. Just these two weeks, i learnt pretty much things. Am pretty enjoying my time here, and looking forward to the near future.

Best long weekend cum mission trip ever..

Woke up at 5am on 9th Aug 2013,  preparing for the long awaited mission trip to Myanmar. And here comes the first joke: the airline was delayed till 1pm. I literally laughed, and i actually tried to sleep, but for the next two hours, saw me tossing on bed. Well you could well say im excited to fly the plane. I woke up ard 7 plus, still got the "it's still early" attitude. So i asked Agapera and Bennie for breakkie, but none replied. Probably still Zzz.. I went breakkie on my own, and packed the remaining stuff into luggage. I left home ard 1020am, with Bennie and Winnie(his wife). We reached Terminal 1 ard 11am. So funny, i didn't noticed that Agapera wasn't in the same cab with us cos i was in shades. Met up with the rest at Terminal 1, at Belt 7/17.

If you asked me how is the mission trip, i just wanna very good and fruitful. Why?
1.I brought along my guitar with me, and though i didn't play for the main service, but i wasn't sad or disappointed. Being able to play for the morning and night devotion is just as good.
2. Rickson, Cyra, Bennie and Xixi, shared their personal testimony. Am just so blessed and encouraged by their testimony. Through this, i am able to see them in a different perspective. Somehow, i like them.
3. There were just too many laughs and times where we talk about issues. Balance was there.

I'm so looking forward to meet them again, whether is it mission trip or not.

My verse for this mission trip: Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition ([b]definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

7 And God’s peace [shall be yours, that [c]tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace] which transcends all understanding shall [d]garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

8 For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

9 Practice what you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, and model your way of living on it, and the God of peace (of [e]untroubled, undisturbed well-being) will be with you.

10 I was made very happy in the Lord that now you have revived your interest in my welfare after so long a time; you were indeed thinking of me, but you had no opportunity to show it.

11 Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be [f] content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am.

12 I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want.

13 I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who [g]infuses inner strength into me; I am [h]self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].

Lonely isn't alone

Alone is a physical state where you are with no one except urself. Like in a shopping mall. Lonely on the other hand is no longer physical,but also emotional. Right now, I'm at 记得吃, plaza sing outlet. I'm alone but not lonely because I'm meeting Daniel and Jeffery later for LAN game. My weekdays is really quiet and lonely, cos no one answered my question or reply on my posts.. I was lonely to the extend that I cried.. But thank God, that the weekend is good.