Sleepless

I woke up pretty early on a Saturday.. Usually my call time it's ard 11 plus to recover from a very long Friday, but here am i awake.. This happen once in a while but this time it's different. When this happens, usually it's because of someone i've been thinking or some events etc.. Ultimately one gotta voice it out. If you're gonna bottle up, and keep all these within yourself, you will tend to be closed up on the inside. With that, how are you gonna make true friends and relationships? If you had something bothering you on the inside, find someone you can talk to. Communication is the key to life. I 'm not too sure for the rest, but for me, i like to talk to people. Getting to know more new friends but with the friends i already have, i like to know them more and better not just on the surface level.

I've come back for more

It's been more than two years already. But folks, i am back. Past two years gone, things happened, people have come and go, there's just too much.. A quick update on me. I ORD two years ago, went on to SOT like almost immediately and graduated the same year too. What's happening now? I am currently working with my SOT friend, Daniel in Asia Mannequin. Been here since 1st April 2013, am getting used to this job. Remember Xiuhui? Well, she has gone with a very handsome, rich boy name Xianbi aka Joseph. Well it's almost two years, and i guess they are fine. Caiping aka Rachel? Well, she told me the bad news on the 25/1/13, if i didn't forget wrongly. Joshua the name was mentioned to us, and we guess she kinda have like him?? Well i wish you all the best.. As for me, well, i've been talking to Michelle for the past two months over whatsapp like practically almost everyday. If you ask me whether i have feelings for her, i would say yes. But this time i am different. Instead of me chasing her all the way, i like to take things slowly yet steady. I confessed i have feelings for her, but i wanna confirm my feelings first before going ahead. I shared my feelings for Michelle with a few SOT friends, and was well received by them. If you asked me what i wanna say, take this: It's never about me. I give you the choice to choose. Whether you like or not, the choice is yours. Just like Michelle, i am giving her the choice to whether if we can work something out, or just remain as we are. I am cool about this. But if given a choice, i would like to develop and go on further. That's for me. I am not too sure for her and i don't wanna push her for the answer. Though i am 24 this year and my deadline is coming, let God lead and guide me to the girl.

Don't do things to get appreciated, rewards

We man do things, help the people ard us is not to get appreciation, rewards.. But rather it's a form of manhood.. Yes, we feel good on the inside to receive all these, some people wants to get all these, there's no wrong with it.. But let's have a willing attitude.. We help bcos we are willing, we love the people ard us.. It doesn't matter if they thank you, appreciate u etc, the more important thing is they get their things solved.. U may nt be them, but as u help them solve their problems, u can be sure they will also help u in the future when u need help.. Remember tis: It's more bless to give to receive...

I can't like you and continue to live in tis life like tis.. I can't like you and still remains the same.. I can't like u yet still saying hurtful words to u.. So then, frm today onwards i want to use words tat will encourage u instead of making u sad, discourage.. Whatever tat's in the past, let it go.. Relationships still move on.. And i make sure tat other ppl wun say anything bad to u..

Determination

I want to say again.. Since i've alr made up my mind to enroll to SOT.. Don't u ever stop me.. You may be saying it's a mistake, waste of time etc Wat u see is only time and money.. You dun even noe wat im going through, let nt even u stop me.. Cos u dun even noe wat's the best for me.. I believe tat as i enroll, i'll be a better person.. It may seems useless to u, but to God, it's just the beginning to wat He wanna do.. I do not follow u, I follow God wholeheartedly..

Awesome day

Yeah today was the first day in SOT.!!! Today's orientation was though hot, tiring.. but all this is worth it and guess wat? We won the first prize of $750 attributes voucher.. We were like so stunned for tat moment.. Really wanna thank God for His best present for us Team 10.. A good start is halfway to success.. So we wanna believe tat more of these blessings will continue to come.. Team 10 rocks.!!!

Today

Today will be the last day when my Team A served together @ Expo.. Today will be the last service 2 here @ Expo hall 8.. Sadly i wun be there and there will also nt be having, Alvin, Alex, Cai Ping, Jasmine and Xiuhui.. Today they are going to Bangkok and will be coming back on the 3rd march thursday.. Got tis feeling of 舍不得.. But would anyone noe? Would anyone care? Would anyone want to sit and talk with you? I want to be frank.. Between ministry and my cell group, i felt better and more relax in ministry.. Im nt saying cg is nt good etc.. But attributes ministry Team A has given us the platform to say our minds and showing our talents and nt being ''mock'' or ''laugh'' at.. God.. This isn't want u wanted.. You placed me in tis cell group to grow and serve others too.. Help me God.. I can't stay tis way all the time.. And i noe tat although no one really care, You always cared for me.. Help me to adjust best to tis cg..